Overview

Day 4-10
So I realized that each day of the vacation seemed to blurrrr together. Here are the highlights and rest of the pictures:

Dinner at Cheeseburger in Paradise
Taking my final (***with a gecko crawling all over the business center)
Rain storms at night
More Jaws and Outback
More Swimming and Pool time
Pina Coladas
Boogie Boarding
Body Surfing
New Earrings that are white gold :)
More going down the slide <3

If you have any questions let me know...


Hawaii 2010 come faster!!

Love always,
N

Day 3

Day 3

Today started off like normal. I woke up exceptionally early to be "productive" in Hawaii (yes that sentence is ironic) We went to the pool all day. It was a nice day but in the back on my mind I was worried about 1.receiving my final in the mail 2.being able to actually DO my final.

My Mom and Dad brought back lunch from their adventures of getting medicine for my Dad. (**who might I add convinced a nurse to prescribe him medicine over the phone...bad ass!) With lunch my mom brought me MAIL from the office, which indeed had my final JUST in time. :) So the honest person I am, I opened the package and began looking at the problems. THANK GOODNESS I did the test in Hawaii. It was literally the HARDEST math test I have ever taken (**and I have taken harder math courses) Discouraged I called it an early day around 4pm and went up to my room to start looking up problems in my math book. AND watch the Oregon vs. Oregon St game. :)

After the game got over we headed to dinner at Thai food. It wasn't as good I remembered it being, which was very discouraging. Last year we went there 2x because it was SO good and spicy. Its called Maui Thai and is EXCEPTIONALLY spicy, I order 1/5 and feel like I can breathe fire. My FAVORITE part of the dinner is homemade coconut ice cream with deep fried bananas. After dinner we all went back to our rooms and PASSED OUT.

Alright Im taking a break from vacation blogging to proclaim I am going on a detox. Working out, eating healthy and most importantly NO BOYS! I am tired of not working out and eating quick easy food. It is getting out of control. And guys I am just sick of the games.

Carrie Underwood - ‘Cowboy Casanova’ Lyrics

You better take it from me, that boy is like a disease
You’re running, you’re trying, you’re trying to hide
And you’re wondering why you can’t get free
He’s like a curse, he’s like a drug
You get addicted to his love
You wanna get out but he’s holding you down
‘Cause you can’t live without one more touch

[Chorus]
He’s a good time cowboy casanova
Leaning up against the record machine
Looks like a cool drink of water
But he’s candy-coated misery
He’s the devil in disguise
A snake with blue eyes
And he only comes out at night
Gives you feelings that you don’t want to fight
You better run for your life

I see that look on your face
You ain’t hearing what I say
So I’ll say it again
‘Cause I know where you been
And I know how it ends
You can’t get away
Don’t even look in his eyes
He’ll tell you nothing but lies
And you wanna believe
But you won’t be deceived
If you listen to me
And take my advice

(Chorus)

Run run away
Don’t let him mess with your mind
He’ll tell you anything you want to hear
He’ll break your heart
It’s just a matter of time
But just remember

(Chorus)
He’s a good time cowboy casanova
Leaning up against the record machine
Looks like a cool drink of water
But he’s candy-coated misery
He’s the devil in disguise
A snake with blue eyes
And he only comes out at night
Gives you feelings that you don’t want to fight
You better run for your life


***Note
Urbandictionary.com defines a casanova as:
"A smooth-talking charmer who has mastered the art of finding, meeting, attracting and seducing beautiful women into the bedroom. One he accomplishes his goal, he leaves the woman in fear of having a relationship and proceeds to find his next conquest."

No names but this goes out to you, I wasted enough time already.

Love always,
N

Day 2

Day 2


Part of vacation to my parents is "sleeping in" which means waking up around 7am! (**and they don't attempt to be quiet) So I humored them and rolled out of bed to get breakfast. After breakfast we went on a walk on a pathway between the hotels and beach until it started to warm up. The sunshine is my cue to get my swim suit on, grab a book and put on sunscreen. (**sunscreen this year due to my WHITENESS upon arrival!)

I decided to go to the "kiddy pool" which off the record is MY FAVORITE pool. The slides are SO much fun! I think the guy that regulates the slides laughs to himself every time he sees me eagerly running up the steps to beat the little kids to the slide. I read the rest of my book "The Choice" at one of the pools at the bottom of the slides (**quicky/easy access) I really enjoyed the book, Nicholas Sparks is such a great author that always seems to know how to tug at my heart. The Choice is a great love story about two people the try to fight loves attraction, but in Nicholas Sparks fashion has a tragedy that test the relationship. (I wont spoil it but HIGHLY recommend the book!)

After a few hours of reading/sliding we all headed to the beach to get some real Hawaiian Beach time <3 We boogy-boarded, built sand castles, body surfed and layed out until dinner time. So around 5pm we headed back to the hotel and showered/changed.

Dinner was at Outback and was SO GOOD. I forgot how much I love Outback, I ALWAYS get the Bloomin' Onion and Alice Spring Chicken (**chicken with mushrooms, bacon and cheese) that comes with an amazing salad. Our service sucked, it made me remember about how service in Hawaii usually is and how it'd drive me NUTS if I lived there.

After dinner we went to the bookstore and I got a new book and some more magazines to keep me occupied. Oh I forgot to mention that ALL day I am dreading my final that my AWFUL teacher MAILED to me for me take IN Hawaii. (**stayed tuned for the whole story) <3

xoxoxo
Love Always,
N

Day 1

Day 1


I didn't realize how much I hate flying until December 1, 2009 (***even if it is to Maui)

My alarm was set 3x for 5:45am 5:50am and 5:55am (**due to my ability to sleep thru and silence my alarm I decided the trio would be a give greater chance of waking up) Once I wake up I attempt to get ready, which at this time of the "morning" is near impossible! My Dad the expert traveler he is runs around the house making sure we have everything/have everything done to leave the house. (**the stuff my mom and I do the night before but we don't bother telling him that) One the airplane I learned how much I appreciate Alaska Airlines; Michael, Ami, BRADEN (**almost 2 yrs old) Derek, Kait and I all flew Hawaiian Air. Derek and Kaits luggage got lost in Honolulu, theres NO leg room, lame movie and the food was NASTYY! So disappointent! However, I entertained myself by watching the videos on my iPhone and read some of my book.

Once we got to Maui I got a sudden feeling of relaxation. There's something about that little airport on Maui that bring a smile to my face. As tradition we got our fresh flower leis and ventured to costco to stock up on pool side snacks.

We got to the hotel and i quickly remembered why Maui is heaven on earth:
1. Pinneapple infused water
2. Comfy beds
3. Christmas decorations everywhere (**even though it's 85+ degrees outside)
4. The poolS
5. The view from our balcony
(**the list is endless)

We got settled and put our swim suits on and headed to the pool slides :) After a few hours by the pool I got ready for dinner and made way to Jaws.

Jaws has the WORLD'S greatest fish tacos! With their simple menu they offer a salsa bar (**which is heaven for "dippers" like myself) with over 10 different types of salsa! I ordered the Mahi Mahi fish tacos and enjoyed my little piece of heaven on earth.

After dinner we were ALL exhausted from traveling and the 2 hour difference. I went to my room and continued my book "the choice" by Nicholas Sparks.

I PASSED out....slept like a baby!

Hawaii was full of fun adventures! I absolutely LOVE Maui <3 it made me really realize how much I appreciate vacations and especially the relaxing time to regroup and repriorotize.

Some highlights:
Sunshine
Infinity pool
Jaws fish tacos/salsa bar
Makenna beach
Piña coladaS
Freds mexican food
Finishing 3 books- wicked, the choice and college girl
Coldstone icecream after dinners <3
Grand Wailea beach/waterslides
Cabana to lay in and take naps :)
Arnold Palmers
Ocean/birds waking me up in the morning
Gorgeous views from my balcony
IPod with new music
New earrings


More details of the trip to come <3 xoxoxo
N

<3

Wailea-Maui,HI
Shark's Fish Tacos <3
Fish Co.
Makenna Beach
Sunshine <3
Fresh Pineapple
Books: The Choice, and My Sister's Keeper
ipod

Gone at the cabin in Cle Elum, WA :) <3 Lidia, my parents and I are going up there early tomorrow to celebrate Thanksgiving.

Top 10 things I'm grateful for:
1. Family
2. The true gospel in my life (**especially the atonement: forgiveness)
3. Friends
4. Safety
5. Basic needs of life: Shelter(***especially my warm comfy bed) /food/water
6. Having a job
7. School (**being able to learn and strive for my goals)
8. Freedom
9. Opportunity (**I have been given soahy opportunities to excel and decvelop into who I want to become)
10. Scriptures

Love always,
N

Happy Thanksgiving!

Today was such a great day! I slept in and woke up and had a cup of Tazo Orange Blossom tea. (**I'm addicted to tea!) I then sat in the kitchen and drank my tea, and watched soccer games.

I then got the motivation to go to Target (**I have an unhealthy love for Target). This week I was voted Rockstar at work and was given a $15 gift certificate to Target <3 I started my Christmas shopping :) I am proud to announce that I have 5/7 people taken care of already. My goal this year is to be completely done with all my shopping by Monday (Nov.31) I am stuck on gift ideas for my parents, especially my dad. I have a few ideas so hopefully it will come together soon.

Tomorrow I am going to The Bodies Exhibit <3 I am sooooo excited! I have been wanting to see the exhibit for 2 years. :) It is a exhibit that is basically in depth of Anatomy. It goes over the integumentary, skeletal, and cardiovascular systems. And at 12:01 I am reunited with the love of my life EDWARD CULLEN. What do you wear for a second date ;) Tomorrow will be a BIG day

Love Always,
N

Christmas List (**for what its worth) :)
Flip
Twilight
Tory Burch flats (**red suede)
Nicholas Sparks book: The Choice
Dress
New True Religion jeans (**Disco Billy Aqua Crystal Big T - Savannah Dark)
Big Donation to a nursing school of your choice :)
Leggings
Sunglasses

So today I realized a few things:
1.I am horrible at matrix equations
2.I am the world's worst procrastinator
3.I hold onto the good in people and 99.9% of the time it ends up hurting me
4.I LOVE Tazo Tea: Flavor of the day-Berryblossom White Tea (***AMAZING)
5.New Moon is THURSDAY
6.I have great friends
7.Hawaii is in less than 2 weeks! <3
8.I need to finish my Christmas shopping by NEXT WEEK!
9.My favorite part of the day is crossing things off my "To Do List"
10.He's just not that into you..<3

Love Always,
N

"Every moment promises a future of endless possibilities, simply dream, believe and never give up"

"You're Not Sorry"

All this time I was wasting hoping you would come around
I’ve been giving out chances everytime and all you do is let me down
And its taking me this long but baby I figured you out
And you think it will be fine again but not this time around

You don’t have to call anymore
I won’t pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don’t want to hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you’re sorry
But I won’t believe you baby like I did before
You’re not sorry no more, no more, no

Lookin’ so innocent
I might believe you if I didn’t know
Could’a loved you all my life
If you hadn’t left me waiting in the cold
And you got your share of secrets
And I’m tired of being last to know
And now you’re asking me to listen
Cuz its worked each time before

But you don’t have to call anymore
I won’t pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don’t want to hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you’re sorry
But I don’t believe you baby like I did before
You’re not sorry no no no noo
You’re not sorry no no no noo

You had me calling for you honey
And it never would’ve gone away no
You use to shine so bright
But I watched our love it fade

So you don’t have to call anymore
I won’t pick up the phone
This is the last straw
There’s nothing left to beg for
And you can tell me that you’re sorry
But I won’t believe you baby like I did before
-Taylor Swift

<3

This song means SO much to me. K I am better off without you.

Love Always,
N

1. I FINALLY mailed my letters/Thanksgiving card to Matthew :) <3 yayyy
Matthew Harper Duffy I miss you so much bud. I really wish you were here, but I know its all for my own selfish reasons.

This weekend was full of adventure and fun activities. However I REALLY realized what makes me happy. As I have grown up my ideal "fun weekend" has really changed and been the sign of my maturing; I realized that what makes me happy has really changed. I really don't like going out in a big group, Id much rather sit at home curled up by the fire watching a movie or playing games.
Things that make me happy:
1. my odd family that is dysfunctional but totally perfect at the same time
2. thinking about my future and what I will accomplish
3. believing there is a greater cause on this earth
4. laughing with my friends
5. making other people happy

I am most comfortable in my leggings, cami, pink fluffy slippers and big comfy sweatshirt with my hair up. (**don't get me wrong I still love getting all dressed up still!) I used to think it was SO fun when my parents would leave, my curfew and responsibilities were gone and I was "free" to do what I wanted. Now I am really realizing that I hate it when they are gone.
Here is my top 5 reasons why I like having my family home:
1. I don't have to cook
2. I'm not alone in a big, empty, scary house: I feel safe!
3. I have someone to sit on the couch by the fireplace and watch football games/movies with
4. My dad knows how to work the fireplace and I don't (**maybe one day I'll learn)
5. My mom actually answers her phone

This week I have SO much going on-
Monday: Tutor for my math test Tuesday. Work. Danielle's Bday
Tuesday: Work. Math lab. Math test.
Wednesday: Catching up on my life. Christmas shopping (I know that sounds ridiculous but Ill be gone for thanksgiving at the cabin and in Hawaii for 10 days after that). Hot Yoga. Setting up my final exam for math class
Thursday: Hanging out with Chad Ford. Twilight. Sushi. New Moon with Emily and Lara
Friday: Work. (**working until like 1am closing) Sara gets home
Saturday: Work
Sunday: Work
**Ok it may not seem like a lot when I actually write it out but seriously!

Wish me Luck! <3

Love Always,
N

Daddy's Girl

Since I was 4 I remember always being a Daddy's girl. I used to sit on his lap during church, get tucked in every night by him and even play soccer together. Everyone reminds me how much I look and act like my dad, often this used to drive me nuts because I didn't see ANY similarities. Lately I realized how much I rely on my dad for encouragement, approval and support. His opinion and thoughts effect my choices and actions in a HUGE way, whether it is about football, food, or other things like school, or big life decisions he is the person I seek approval from. My dad is the hardest working person I know, he has always provided for our family. This week on his business trip (**which my dad LOATHES but does VERY often) I received the SWEETEST text from my dad (**at 6AM! told you he works hard!) it literally brought tears to my eyes. This text reminded me of how loving my dad is and how that is what makes us so similar. We both have big personalities that are also so loving. Sometimes we may not seem like we care but that is quite the opposite, we both are the most loving and would do anything for those we love.

This month my sweet dad found an article and put it on my desk (**he does this frequently and gets REAL sad if you don't read the article and get as excited as he did, its actually a lot of pressure with these articles) This article was entitled "Be a Quality Person" by Marvin J. Ashton. I seriously LOVED this article it was like it was written exactly for me at this time in my life. The main points of the article were how to better yourself

1. A quality person has self respect (**set goals)
"Self-respect allows a person to know who he or she is and what is expected of him or her"
"..continue to work towards high standards and goals to serve others, to continue to practice self discipline. You will not compromise your standards or beliefs."
"Remind yourself that striving can be more important than arriving"

2. A quality person is someone with integrity
"Certainly it is greater to be trusted than loved"
"To be worthy of the highest trust is a noble attribute and compliment"

3. A quality person will not be offended (**this one really surprised me and helped me)
"In life there is no time for being hurt"
"A wise person will focus on principles of optimism and hope"

4. A quality person will develop the capacity to love and be lovable
"It is more important to love than to be loved"
"We all need to take advantage of every opportunity to love with tenderness and sincerity."

5. A quality person will murmur not
"He will not find fault or criticize, belittle or nag"
"Instead he was positive and had no time for contention, discouragement, or apathy."

6. A quality person is one who has real faith
"With true faith we will increase our meaningful relationship with God"
"He lives. He loves us. He hears our prayers and would lead us to eternal happiness"

Other great things this article mentioned:
"Dont be harsh in your self appraisal. Rather measure yourself by whether or not you are living the gospel of Jesus Christ."
"Personal challenge: not to successfully but to live richly, fully, ad joyfully. The goal is not to wait for the right person but to be the right person."


Thank you for the GREAT article Daddy...

Love Always,
N

Recipe Alert:
I am a PROUD owner of all the Nordstrom cook books. Here is the recipe I found for DELICIOUS banana chocolate chip bread. (**super easy!)

Preheat oven to 350
Butter 2 9x5x3 and dust with flour (**prevents from sticking)

In mixing bowl sift together flour, baking soda, baking powder, and salt

In ANOTHER mixing bowl use an electric mixing bowl on medium speed, cream together the 3/4 cup butter and sugar. Reduce speed of mixer and add bananas and sour cream. Add the flour mixture in 3 batches beating until flour disappears. Add chocolate chips by folding the chips into the mixture.

Bake for 20 minutes then rotate the pans 180 degrees then bake for another 30 mins (=50 minutes total)

3/4 C of unsalted butter (**room temperature)
3 1/2 C cake flour
1/2 teaspoon baking soda
4 teaspoon baking powder
1/4 salt
1 1/3 C sugar
4 large eggs
3 C mashed bananas
2/3 C sour cream
1 C semi sweetened chocolate chips

Today was a great day. I didn't work :) that in itself is enough to make a great day. I woke up early and drank a cup of tea and planned my day. (**attempted to plan my day, which NEVER goes like I plan but that's ok)

I then looked at my phone and saw my cute daddy had sent me a text at 6am. (**he's definitely the hardest working guy i know!) his sweet word of encouragement and love brought me to tears. I have always and will always be a daddys girl.

After my cup of tea (**delicious white tea I might add!) I proceeded to ATTEMPT to do my homework. After being frustrated and distracted I decided to break and get a sugar-free peppermint latte :) after I did that I went to emilys for help on math. I offically LOVE emilys home. Cats and warm welcoming home are the best parts! :) Emily and I soon found out I was being bullied online by Patricia through my online math class!! Emily and I sure showed her who was boss! :)

I later helped my cute mother find a gown for her charity gala in San Fran :) <3 with no luck I managed to find some MUST have items:

Bracelet with quote "every moment promises a future of endless possibilities, simply dream, believe and never give up"

Grey tights (**nordys MUST have! I love my black and cream tights so naturally I NEEDED the grey!)

Twilight "team Edward shirt" (**adorable must have for premier night in 9 dayssssss!)

Flannel shirt (**I know I'm so late to jump on the band wagon but this is by far worth the wait. It's sooo cute!)

Black/grey scarf

Black belt

Ps-gossip girl was great!

Love always,
N

I am making an official blog of my "To Do" list because SOMEONE needs to hold me accountable.

To Do

Clean my CAR/ROOM/BATHROOM
Finish my nursing application to BYUi
Follow up on my CNA certification
Online math class assignments! (**I always get marked down for not chatting with them)
Write Elder Matthew Harper Duffy back
Get a social life

Love is a four letter word that is used for my different situations. ie- I LOVE sushi. I LOVE my parents. I LOVE you. All true and beautiful but yet so different. How is it that love can have so many meanings?

I remember growing up knowing love. This love I knew was for my family and parents. (beautiful and divine) My family sets such great examples for me. They have raised me to understand the purpose of life and taught me how to be a "quality" person. This love is a true feeling that I can truly testify of.

As I got older I once again felt a strong love this time for my dear friend Clyde. (my cat) This love was similar to the love for my family but I felt a sense of nurture towards my dear Clyde. Once again this love was something I was sure of and would bare witness of.

Later I made great friends. Unfortunately it wasn't until after high school that I understood how great they were. I am so lucky to be surrounded by people so genuine and caring like them. My friends care about me and have my best intentions in mind and are always making me a better person. I have learned that the respect and appreciation for these great friends is yet another form of love. I will always be there for them. This love is special and different from other love, but still true.

I have been taught I am going to fall in love with someone I'll spend the rest of my life with. It will be like a fairy tale and we will live happily ever after. However, I continue to get hurt as i fail at finding this love....does that mean i am not meant for THIS love? Or is this love not true? Someday I'll find out...until then please make the hurt of falling stop.

“If you love somebody, let them go. If they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were.”- Alisha Rodney (my love guru!)

I have so much going on lately, I am sorry I haven't been diligent about blogging.

My birthday was Sunday and it was probably the most unexciting day...which might be why it was my favorite day of this whole year so far. I spent the day (week) with my family celebrating a few of my favorite things. Here are a few of the great activites/things we participated in:
Sushi- 2x I am obsessed
Nordstrom Cafe
Uggs
Funfetti everything (**all dyed pink)- Cake, Cookies and Cupcakes <3
Family dinner
Icecream cake (**cookies 'n cream from Cold Stone)
Sounders game (**they won! It was one of my favorite games this season!)
Letter from Matthew Harper


Thank you all for your love and support for 21 years...and counting :) <3


Things to look forward to:
Trip to Pullman to see Danielle :)
Finally purchasing Tory Burch flats
Thanksgiving at the Cabin (**soooo relaxing! I cant wait until the expansion project is done!)
New Moon: November 20th 12:00am :)
Hawaii with the ENTIRE family December 1

Life is so wonderful. People make fun of me because I HATE surprises...but its knowing the wonderful things in my life that are coming up that keep me so happy and optimistic.

"We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have.” - Frederick Keonig

Love always,
N

Exhausting. Everything about this week was exhausting!!

Right when I felt like I have gained control of my emotions life throws me a curve ball. Its like God is sending a final to test and see how well I've really learned my lesson and learned to control my emotions. This week I was contacted by 2 people I loved and was hurt greatly by. Its weird how you forget how important someone is, until they are back in your life and filling a role in your life you didn't realize was empty. I pride myself on being a very understanding and forgiving person, which often leads me to be hurt and "walked all over", but its moments like this week when I appreciate my ability to forgive and let people back into my life. Friendship is hard to find and should be cherished, and not thrown away at the first chance. (**But it also makes me REALLY appreciate and love my friends that are ALWAYS there for me. I think I have a few of the worlds most amazing people as friends.)


This week I was in awe and wonder at the beauty of the world (**more specifically my dear Maple Valley) It is fall season here in the beautiful northwest, which means leaves are changing and falling. It is probably one of the most beautiful experiences to witness, the leaves turn the most beautiful orange/red and glitter on the roads. I took a picture of a beautiful tree near my house, that captures the beauty of fall. There were thunder and lightening storms all week which made for the prime hot chocolate, fireplace and slippers mood. I forgot the wind storms, and thunder/lightening storms when I remembered winters in Maple Valley when I was in Provo complaining about the snow. I still would take the winters here in Maple Valley over the Provo snow ANY DAY! :) After all the storms and rain, I was driving and found this BEAUTIFUL rainbow. The picture doesnt even do it justice. It was after a longgggggggg day of work (**typical complaint I know!) and I was really thinking about myself, friendships, love, god, and my testimony and (ofcourse) nursing and turned the corner to this beautiful, vibrant rainbow. It reminded me of God's promise to never flood the earth like he did to Noah. (phewf! I worry sometimes about that!) It gave me a little more of a warm fuzzy feeling than just a convenient to not flood the earth. I felt it was a little sign from God that he is looking out for me, knows and remembers my purpose and remind me of my plans in life. I probably am reading too much into a silly rainbow but I know I felt such an amazing warm feeling that gave me such comfort. My life has so much left ahead of it <3


Oh I also went to my FIRST seahawks game today, we lost. bad! 3-27 but I am convinced it was one of my best memories! I called in sick :) (**DONT TELL!) Life seems to really be getting a little better each day, I can say that I am happy and its not a struggle or due to me making and effort to find happiness.

Love always,
N

So yesterday I had a very productive day! I went to Cold Stone Creamery to pick up ice cream cupcakes for Tatum's birthday celebration at work, and they turned out SO cute! I splurged and ate the cake batter cupcake and it was DIVINE, really it's one wonderful secret. We all enjoyed the ICECREAM cupcakes in the terrential down pour/wind storm! (**I forgot about the wind storms here in WA)

At work the wind was blowing so hard that the power went out!! How do you work in a restaurant without power? GREAT QUESTION! You really can't. We couldn't legally serve food, or any drinks (**including water!!) and I had to wait until the Regional Manager called back to release us from work and tell us to go home. However, he didn't ever call back so we sat, in the silent. I have to admit after I got over the odd feelings of the quiet restaurant I began to enjoy my time in a calm (**relatively speaking!) and quiet setting. After about 2 hours the power returned!

I really then realized how in life we take for granted SO many things. (ie-POWER!) I was reminded of the show after Conference about the light in Ghana. :) It was a documentary about how BYU engineering students created a toy that would generate energy, and store it in a generator. This generator was then used to charge flash lights, and LED light lanterns that allowed the students in Ghana to study in the dark. Many believed these few extra hours of study time will give so many more opportunities to the people of the school. It was so moving. In life we take advantage of living in such privilege, I don't think twice before I turn on my running hot water for a shower, or turning on the light switch. Getting in my car for a quick drive to pick something up at the grocery store is a daily routine that is easily taken for granted! This week I am going to try to remember to turn off my lights, shorten my shower and be grateful for the privileged life I live.

After work I went to get my Halloween costume, and was very discouraged...This year I am trying to go for more CLASSY and less TRASHY. (**I don't think the costume creators understand the difference!) I want to be an Indian this year but the costumes at the store are definitely something Pocahontas would NOT wear. Ugh! After being discouraged I went to Relief Society "Terrific Tuesday" activity with my mom. :) ahahahah! It was a night full of arts and crafts which was exactly what I have been needing in my life. I made a great cook book for recipes and a bulletin board. Thank goodness for Relief Society!! <3 I then went to the gym and ran my heart out! 50 minutes (thanks to UW volleyball team for dragging the game against Standford out....I couldn't get myself to stop running until it was over!)

This morning I worked on my online math (**YUCK!) I have been totally slacking on being proactive and working on the group project.
I then continued my artsy mood and started my project of making flower head bands. SUPER CUTE! Tonight I am having dinner with my "Big Sister" <3 I am so excited to see her and get the much needed sisterly advice. :)

Wish me luck with my math hw...

Love always,
N

I have been praying for help in making possibly one of the biggest decisions in my life. Utah or Washington? BSN or ASN? The main question I have been wrestling in my mind is: Academic or Personal? Most of the schools in Washington are better academically for me than the schools in Utah. However, I miss Utah and would love the environment there much more than I would in Washington.

I keep reminding myself it is only 2 years of my life and I will be free to go where I'd like after. Life full of choices and surprises, which would be great but I HATE surprises. It is really frustrating because one day I will be convinced one school is the right choice and wake up the next morning completely contradicting myself. I am so grateful for my friends putting up with my indecisive-ness and especially my parents for their support and love. They believe in me and know that the world is mine for the taking.

"Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that, the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
two roads diverged in a wood, and I --
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference. " -Robert Frost The Road Not Taken

This poem has been such a strength to me and has really put life into perspective to me. I feel a lot like the traveler, torn between the paths. I know I will be able to make the choice right for me and it will have "made all the difference".

Life, this is me taking a leap of faith, please don't let me fall!

Love Always
N

So life has been so different lately, and I don't know if its due to me being sick or a change of the tides. Hopefully the fall season is bringing the normal things that make me smile: psl, football, uggs, sweaters, school supplies, falling/changing color leaves, birthday and Halloween. Maybe this fall will bring hope, determination and answers to my prayers.

Yesterday I went on my first (real/true) date in a while, we went to a Haunted House. So I decided 1.I have a hard time being affectionate with someone 2.I don't know what I want the "perfect guy" to be like. I thought I knew what he was like in my head, but I think some of the things I thought that were important before have changed. 3.I am not at all afraid of blood (unless contaminated with HIV etc)

Today I watched conference, Jeffrey R. Holland's talk was so amazing! He spoke witness of the Book of Mormon in words that were so beautiful and true that I felt like it was directly from the Lord. I don't see how anyone watching his talk could deny the Book of Mormon, and not feel the love of Jesus Christ in his testimony. He bore of his love for the scriptures, and his faith in their purity and truthfulness. It made me reflect on my testimony of the scriptures, and the Lord. Jeffrey R. Holland is my favorite speaker this year, next to President Monson. President Monson always makes me feel his love for the gospel, and church. He also makes me strive to be better, I loved the song he incorporated into his talk today "Have I done any good in the world today? Have I helped anyone in need? Have I cheered up the sad, and made someone feel glad, if not I have failed indeed". Such simple lyrics but their simplicity say exactly Christ message during his ministry. I used to love conference because it was a week of not having to go to church but am realizing I love if for the opportunity to hear the Apostles and use their strength to build my testimony.

Tomorrow I have a longgggggggg list of things to do. YUCK! Laundry, Bank, Clean my room and car, Group Project and it keeps going. yay...I LOVE monday ;) but on the bright side Gossip Girl is on! Mondays are challenging but I am going to try to not be discouraged and seize the day! Wish me luck...

Love Always,
N

Wicked was SO amazing. It was so much fun to watch, and I LOVED the music and costumes. I really loved Elphaba, and Glenda! Our seats were perfect and I loved every part of the play. It made me excited to watch "The Wizard of Oz" :) The CD is in my car and it makes me smile. However, the adventure of my mom driving to Seattle was...interesting to say the least. It took us 1 hr 45 mins to get to Palisade which is normally a 45 min drive. We had the best fresh salmon and banana ice cream :) Palisade is my FAVORITE place to eat, the Seattle shores are so beautiful in their own unique way. This day couldn't have been any better except I was sick, but I didn't let that get in my way.

“Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.”

Love Always,
N

"You may be disappointed if you fail, but you are doomed if you don't try." - Beverly Sills

"You are the master of your own destiny. Use your strengths well. They are the keys to your destiny and your success in life. Once you know yourself and take action to realize your dreams, you can unlock the doors to your own potential." - Neil Somerville

"Take control of your destiny. Believe in yourself. Ignore those who try to discourage you. Avoid negative sources, people, places, things and habits. Don't give up and don't give in." - Wanda Carter

Life is what you make it, so I have decided to wake up every morning choosing to be happy, loving, and determined. I have noticed that I allow others to determine my life. I need to take control and follow my heart. I am meant for great things, and shouldn't settle for anything less.

Today was a day of ups and downs, its days like these that I agree with people that I am moody. Seriously though how could I not..my day was full of good times and hard time? My day started off with a phone call from a sweet lady at Bellevue College apologizing for the registration confusion yesterday (which was a COMPLETE disaster!) which was refreshing. I then went to a work meeting, which was like most of them...not very productive but yet something I try to make the most of. As I left the meeting I realized how lucky I was that it is still wonderful weather in Maple Valley, WA and I am able to have my sunroof down. (small miracle!) I then grabbed my paycheck and deposited it, noticing an extra $400 in my bank account. Feeling so excited about my great day, (after a few months of forcing myself to be happy...it seemed today was going my way!) I met up with Emily at the gym. After I felt so proud of myself because I was sore from boxing and didn't let that keep me from my daily work out plan. I came home and showered, and grabbed a yummy Peach Tea from Cutter's Point on my way to work. I felt so excited about my day and feeling happy effortlessly, it was so refreshing. Life has been so challenging and stressful lately that I wondered if I would ever be normal again, and today seemed to go that way. As I sat in my car before work I began to think about life, nursing school, Provo and my testimony. It is then when I began to lose my breath, and feel all my anxiety come rushing back. Tears began rolling down my face as I internally wrestled over my future and hesitated on my plan. I felt so scared, confused and let down. Why couldn't Heavenly Father make life choices so clear and easy to know right from wrong. I feel like one day I know I am making the right choice with Provo, and then today I had completely opposite feelings. Which feelings are right? What is the right choice? Where am I supposed to go from here? What should my next step be? When I pray I don't get answers, and I know Heavenly Father wants me to make the choice, but that is what scares me. What if I make the wrong one? I walked into work with mascara running and red eyed, and it went down hill from there. I cant wait for these big decisions to be over and be on my way to my goals in life. Its the first big step that I am so afraid of.

I realized when I got home from my day that I am need to remember the good times, and focus on everything positive in my life. I cant focus on the things I am afraid of, and things that bring me down. Life is too short to be unhappy for silly reasons.

Reasons to be happy:
iPhone has picture/video texting!
Sunny weather in Maple Valley
Wicked with my Mom is in less than 1 week :)
I have a relationship with God, and Jesus (and they will lift me through the hard times)
I know the friends I have now are real and care about Me and my best interests
I have supportive parents who want me to be happy, successful, and righteous
The hardest part of getting into Nursing school is over (Anatomy Phys)

There are so many more, I decided to write my top 5 down on a piece of paper and put it in my car so that I will be reminded of them daily.

Isiah 41:10
Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.


Fear is something that I struggle with, I fear failure, which often hinders my progression. "Don't let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game" is a quote that I have written on my mirror. I fear failure so deeply that I would rather never try than fail. I need to remember the Lord is watching over me, and will strengthen me.

Today I babysat two little girls from my church, and I loved every minute of it. It is sad but I had so much in common with these little girls (1yr and 5yrs) We all love Princesses, Macaroni and Cheese, Polly Pockets, Chalk, Coloring and Popsicle. I loved Sarah and Lela's hair and room, seriously these two girls are the cutest little girls ever. After playing with the girls I went to dinner with Nicole. It was really nice to eat and talk about life. Easy conversation can be so soothing especially when its with a person I can relate to and understand so well. I made a new CD today with a bunch of new songs I downloaded. Music always seems to express emotions I cant put to words. As I listened to the music on this CD I realized I am really mellowing down, and just wanting to find someone that I can trust, love, and be myself around. I think being a wife and mom are going to be the things in life that bring me the most joy. I also made a copy of WICKED! 1 day!! <3 size="5">

"We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have,but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have." -Frederick Keonig

Love always,
N

Chorus of a song I heard on the radio and immediately fell in love with:

Sounds like life to me it ain’t no fantasy
It’s just a common case of everyday reality
Man I know it’s tough but you gotta suck it up
To hear you talk you’re caught up in some tragedy
It sounds like life to me

Sounds like life to me plain old destiny
Yeah the only thing for certain is uncertainty
You gotta hold on tight just enjoy the ride
Get used to all this unpredictability
Sounds like life

Man I know its tough but you gotta suck it up
To hear you talk you’re caught up in some tragedy
Sounds like life to me
Sounds like life

Life isn't meant to be easy, it is the bad days that make you appreciate the good ones :)

Natalie Olsen affected my life in the time I knew her. No one was so happy and enjoying every moment of life. Natalie you are always in my thoughts and have continue to impact me while you are in heaven. I love you!

Today I found out that my math from BYU doesn't transfer anywhere. AWESOME! I am SO glad I studied everyday in the math lab for 3+ hrs. Provo College won't accept a math course with less than 4 credits and BYU math courses are 3 credits. LOVELY...So I am going back to school just to take Math on my quarter off. (a math I have already taken!!)

One a brighter note, I signed my Mom and I up for a boxing class at the gym! I am so excited, we do real boxing lessons and will also relieve a ton of stress!!! However, today as i was signing up the lady that teaches the class freaked me out by talking in "boxing lingo" which I wasn't aware even existed. This should be interesting! I am still going strong on my work out plan :) and am actually enjoying the gym, and feeling energized. This weekend wiped me out, I worked a lot training a new person, took my CNA test, and worked out!

Goals for the week:
Start Volunteering at Hospital
Work Out 5/7 days
Get into Math that will count at Provo College (and not ruin my Hawaii trip!)
Do a kind deed for someone
Clean my room :)
Finish my Nursing Application paperwork (ugh!)

My CNA registration certificate FINALLY came in the mail, 3 months later! It seriously makes me sick to think that my dream of getting into nursing school may be pushed back because Washington Department of Health took so long on my paperwork. Due to the length of time it took to receive my certificate, I was hoping my certificate would be sparkling or diamond in crested! Instead was a plain piece of paper that could have taken >2mins to print! That's ok though, because I am one step closer to everything I have worked so hard for. My application is due in 12 days (Sept 30!). Woohoo I couldn't be more excited!

Other exciting things on my calendar:
October 1= Wicked with my Momma
October 25= My 21 Birthday! :)
October 31= Halloween
November 20= New Moon comes out <3
November 26= Thanksgiving at the Cabin
December 1= Hawaii
December 25= Christmas at the Cabin

Oh and did I mention college football season started so that adds to my exciting schedule. Go Cougars

Kanye's Work Out Plan

"So first of all we gon' work on the stomach Nobody wants a little tight ass! 1 and 2 and 3 and 4 and get them sit ups right and Tuck your tummy tight and do your crunches like this..." -Kanye West

Alright so it isn't Kanye's Work Out Plan but it is mine :) I have decided that I have let my health/body slack for too long! What I can't stand about working out is that I am just too tired to get myself to go to the gym, and when I DO actually make it to the gym I am 10x more tired and now SORE the next morning. It's a horrible snowball effect, however they say after a few weeks that wears off; I never make it long enough on my work out plan to get to that point though :( So I have decided a plan that will work :)...For every day I work out I am transferring $10 into my checking account. I know, how pathetic that I have to bribe myself to work out...but as long as it works I'm happy! Now at the end of the week if I work out like I should be I will have $60 in my checking account and will be able to reward myself with some shopping at the end of the month!


I really enjoy the classes at the gym, they trick me into working out longer and harder. The ones I plan on going to are Hot Yoga, Cycling (yuck) and Zumba. I am also signing up for tennis lessons again, I guess the US Open has inspired to me get back into tennis :) Working out is going to be really good for me, it will relieve all my stress and get my heart healthy! Plus I am convinced that when I am done I'll magically have a butt like Kim Kardashian and arms like Madonna!



Wish me luck...Hopefully as Kanye says "ladies if you follow these instructions exactly you might bear to pull you a rapper, a nba player man, at least a dude wit' a car"



Love,
N

Dear Nursing School

Dear Nursing School,

Words cant describe the relationship we have. I have never wanted anything so much but yet hated it at the same time. Once I decided to go to nursing school the path was set and the goal was clear. As I began the process and took the classes I then realized what the Nursing field is like, how hard it is and most importantly how badly I wanted it. Nursing School you seemed like a dream that was so far away from reality. The bumps along the way of finishing my pre-requite courses has been a challenge and tested my desire for Nursing.

Life has never taught me how to deal with challenges. Throughout my life I have managed to get through challenges without running into the wall of defeat. I am stubborn, therefore I never give up. (even when it seems like it is pointless) My last quarter of pre-requistes were the hardest, I was burnt out of Anatomy Physiology, going to my CNA class 5-9pm every day and working every night possible. During this time I learned to manage my time, and prioritize my "To Do List". Despite the challenging and overwhelming nature of the quarter it ended up being the most memorable and rewarding times of my life. The CNA program really harvested my desires to help others in a health care professional atmosphere. This time period is when I knew for certain Nursing School was for me. The excitement and love for Nursing festered inside for the next few months and is the source of comfort when the road towards Nursing has gotten tough.

The CNA program at BCC was my first real-life experience, and I was scared to death the first day. I knew that if I didn't like the CNA program, Nursing would be difficult for me to develop passion towards. We learned a lot of interesting skills and health care knowledge. My favorite aspect of the CNA course was interacting with the patients and being involved in taking care of the patients through vital signs and charts. The Nurses were very helpful in giving me advice and comfort for my tough journey ahead. Nursing isn't the most glamerous work, I did a lot of gross things and suprisingly loved every minute of it. Nursing school I know we are a match made in heaven. It has been a rough road already, I know it is worth every heart ach and tear. You are always in my prayers and I think about you daily.

Love ALWAYS,
N

Change

"The key to change ...is to let go of fear"
"For everything you have missed, you have gained something else, and for everything you gain, you lose something else"

Lately I have reflected on the change in my life, and these changes directed my gratitude towards Heavenly Father. Change is something I have always been afraid of, but without it life would be at a stand still with no progression or improving. Despite the awkward discomfort of change it is the process of molding and shaping the person you'll become. Fear is the biggest disruption to change. In my Doctrine and Covenants class at BYU the professor illustrated that nothing from the Lord causes fear, those feelings only come from Satan. Fear of change is from Satan trying to prevent the wonderful change from the Lord. I have learned a lot about myself and through change have decided the type of person I want to be, and what I want to stand for. I enjoy being around people and am person that enjoys helping and being there for my friends. I would do anything to make people I love and care for happy. All of these changes in my life are shaping my into the person I want to be, and I couldn't be more grateful for my Heavenly Father for "the climb".