"Hes Just Not That Into You" by Greg Behrendt, Liz Tuccillo

1. Hes Just Not That Into You If He's Not Asking You Out

"Men find it very satisfying to get what they want....If we want you we will find you" (p 9)

2. Hes Just Not That Into You If Hes Not Calling You

3. Hes Just Not That Into You If Hes Not Dating You

4. Hes Just Not That Into You If Hes Not Having Sex 

with You 

5.Hes Just Not That Into You If Hes Having Sex with 

Someone Else

6. Hes Just Not That Into You If He Only Wants to See 

You When He is Drunk

7. Hes Just Not That Into You If He Doesn't Want to 

Marry You

8.  Hes Just Not That Into You If Hes Breaking Up 

With You

9. Hes Just Not That Into You If He Has Disappeared on You

10.  Hes Just Not That Into You If He is Married 

(or any other insane variations of being unavailable)

11.  Hes Just Not That Into You If He is a Selfish Jerk

a Bully or a Really Big Freak

(**Change sex for making out)

(**Change drinking to drinking coffee? haha!)

Girls- This is seriously the truth, YOU ALL should read this 

book. (this will eliminate girls having such a bad name!) 

Re-looking at this has made me re-think relationships and the

people I care about. 

Thank you Greg Behrendt, Liz Tuccillo you have changed my life!!

Today I did a lot of thinking. I thought about where I was 5 years ago (17+ going into my senior year) and where I thought I would be 5 year later. I realized the ONLY thing I was right about was living in Utah. At 17 I saw myself at 22:
-graduated from school with a miraculous degree and "big girl job"
-driving a really nice car that I bought with my salary wage
-dating someone who I wanted to marry
-"sex in the city" mature but with a core group of best girl friends
-have alteady gone to Europe and New York
-have a cute dog that I walk/run with in the mornings
-owning every classy article of clothing from nordstrom

Alright I admit my list is lame, but I really feel discouraged. Why have I let life take control and lose track of the things I really wanted (though I admit some are better off not being completed) Am I too hard on myself? Have I grown up in other ways better than I imagined? Or am I just extremely behind? Maybe the best way to decide is to set some new goals to where I want to be and see myself in 5 years.

In 5 years I will be 27 and:
-married
-graduated with my RN license and a BSN
-comfortable with my weight
-endowed
-enjoy conference (all sessions)
-saving $/buying a house
-off a "college lifestyle" sleeping pattern
-be confident in my cooking
-see my family more often and be sure they know how grateful I am for them/love them

Wish me luck!

So life is good. I had today off from school and finally caught up on sleep, hw and feeling like a human being. I have still been working out everyday which is SO good. I feel better but the weight and chub isn't coming off yet- but fear not I am not discouraged yet! I went tanning for the first time in seriously 3+ months!!

I am deciding that I really want to wear less make up. I get addicted to a certain look because I am so self conscious of certain things on my face. I am finally starting to LOVE my freckles (its only taken me 22+ years) I know the eyelash extensions doesn't help the less make-up look but it counts as less make up in my book :)

I read another great talk from the ensign with conference talks and LOVED it. This one was about young women and the impact we have and how important it is to be honest, true, benevolent and chase. There are so many divine qualities to work on, and always improve on. It makes me feel better when I focus on one of those qualities and better myself. I can feel myself improving and growing up; I love knowing that I am maturing and developing into a better person.

I am a little homesick and miss my friends and family especially. You all mean to world to me and have helped me SO much in life.

xoxo N

Some days I day dream about how after school, or after I'm married life will be easier; there wont be tests, or relationship dilemmas to stress about. I know that life never gets easier, and after graduating and after I am married new challenges will arise and be just as complex as these now. I still like to hold onto the idea that one day life may be less complicated and easier. I know that when things are hard and life is complicated and busy to just focus on the things that are important and need to get done- tackle the day and wake up ready for a new start but sometimes it is hard to bounce back after a night of rest. Lately the only time life doesn't seem too overwhelming and confusing is when I am either: working out, WITH a certain boy, or at the temple. Its funny because those seem to be the ONLY things I ever do.

Tomorrow I have clinicals 6am-3pm and then work from 4-10pm. It is going to be rough. Not to mention I have 2 tests on Wednesday that I need to be studying for. Wednesday the certain boy leaves for the weekend and I honestly already feel empty just thinking about it. I seriously feel like a huge part of me will be missing those days. Boo....

Sorry todays blog is so whinny and down. Tomorrow is a NEW day and a fresh start.

Highlight of my day: playing with the kids for our pediatric lab, working out at the gym while reading my ensign

• It is finally sunny here
• I ordered my Littmann stethoscope last week! :)
• Tomorrow I am going to yoga <3
• I am starting to work out again- its about time

We started learning how to do IVs at the end of last semester but never practiced them. My sister in laws dad and brother are both in the healthcare profession and were SO nice and made me try my first IV on them one night at their house. I swear I was shaking and about to cry from fear- but like everything else with nursing you just have to go at it with confidence and it ends up being easier than you feared. (However, IVs are actually just as hard as I imagined) Getting the first time jitters out of the way was helpful. Some people from my program got together and practiced IVs on each other last week (totally a greys anatomy moment- you know when the interns resort to putting epidurals in themselves etc.) and it was SO much fun, I honestly think that knowing it wasnt my first time made it a better experience for me. The more practice I get the more confident I am, and the better I become. No big deal but I got my IV first time ;) School is great and I love every minute of it. Nursing is my passion and I am so grateful I found something I LOVE to do. 

Today was a great day. This week has been kind of rough- which is frustrating because I am trying so hard to stay positive and keep high spirits even though things are kind of crazy. So once again I am going to start my blogs off with somethings I am grateful for.

• Yesterday and Today have been BEAUTIFUL- I got to put my sunglasses on and use my sunroof
• My parents. (that honestly is enough said!) my mom and dad are the greatest people I know, I know i say this all the time but I dont know what I would do without them. They are my biggest fans, my best friends, people I can count on to tell me the honest truth (even if it hurts) and love me unconditionally. I talk to my mom literally 10x a day and am not ashamed to admit it <3 One of my ALL TIME FAVORITE things in the world is when my dad calls just to talk. I am the biggest daddys girl (and mamas girl) and love those moments with my dad. I miss them both SO much.
• Les Miserables soundtrack on itunes 
• No clinicals today!! SCORE

Today I slept in, and woke up to the sunshine. It was nice to wake up with warmth on my face and knowing it was going to be a beautiful day. I worked on a few emails for school, and edited my paper. I went and got my hair done (finally I felt like such a gross person with nasty split ends!) After that I literally laid in bed and watched "Say Yes To The Dress". (I have a sick obsession with that show) I then ventured to the gym (yes 2 days in a row- I am impressed with myself!!) I then went on a hike with Justin. This was honestly the best part of my day. He was so sweet for being patient with me- a.I am out of shape  b.i had JUST worked out  c.he took me STRAIGHT UP A MOUNTAIN ;) Kidding but I literally made him stop every 2-5 minutes because my legs felt like jello. (and he didnt even complain) Half way up the hike we took a break and talked. It was such a pretty view and I really enjoy talking to Justin. I feel like him and I are a lot alike. After the break he forced me to finish the hike and see the cave, and I am SO glad he did. The whole hike was fantastic. I love hikes and this was a great one (i just wish i was in shape!) Thank you Justin! After the hike I stopped for a diet coke (naturally!) Now its hw time. booooo. I am so grateful for friends, the new ones here and from home. I really have missed my friends from home lately though- you guys are the best. xoxoxo

The perfect weekend

Note my HOT MAMA shoes!

Alright once again I have been slacking on my blog (which means I have been busy and having a great time...even more reason to blog right?!)

Last tuesday I got eyelash extensions- advice to ANYONE DO IT! it is worth your $ and is the best thing I have done. My time getting ready is about 15-20 minutes now!! (not exaggerating!) I will admit at first they were a little weird to get used to because they were long and always there but after about a day of being a little self-concious of them I fell in love.

My mom came on Thursday and it was the best weekend EVER! (once again not exaggerating) I had my eyelashes, my mom, shopping, les miserables, yummmmmy food and a certain boy. I honestly feel like the luckiest girl in the world. I am so happy with my life.

Thursday I picked my mom up from the airport and we drove down to Alpine to meet up with my Grandparents (who I rarely see because they have been serving missions on and off for 8 years) It was so great to have my mom with me, and to see my grandparents. After we got there we waited for my cousin (who is PREGNANT! congrats KATIE!) and went to a burger place called JCW which had delicious shakes!! Recommendation: chocolate marshmallow (dont judge it before you try it)! :) After a few hours in Alpine with my extended family my mom and I ventured back up to SLC and ate at Red Iguana. Red Iguana is hands down one of my favorite mexican restaurants EVER. I got the mole pablano and was in heaven. After dinner we were SO full and came home and went to bed.

Friday we woke up and I had clinicals and my mom went and got her hair cut. Then around 3 we met up again and went to SLC to Gygi which is an adorable kitchen/home store in SLC. I decided I wanted just about everything in the store (thank goodness I dont have a place for home/kitchen stuff yet or else I might have gone crazy!) After that my mom and I came home and met a certain boy for dinner. This boy seriously is making me SO SO SO happy lately, being around him makes me feel so secure, happy, and warm inside. I really want to spend the rest of my life with him which scares me a little. I am trying to hold back my feelings this time so I dont get hurt. (easier said than done!) He is the sweetest, kind and biggest gentleman I have ever met. He shows me how great a guy can be and what dating should be like, I feel like a princess when I am around him. He tells me how beautiful I am and respects me. Anyways sorry about my sidetracking, we went to Texas Roadhouse which is SO yummy! The only problem with Texas Roadhouse is that the portions are SO big that I can never finish my food (or even close to it!!) It was SO good. My mom loved meeting the guy I am so infatuated with, and could see all of the things I like about him when she met him. It is nice to know that my mom thought he was as amazing as I have described. After dinner he came back to house and played cards and talked with my mom and I.

Saturday my mom and I shopped. It was SO fun. We went to Rodworks (amazing home decor store!), DSW (I got 2 ADORABLE shoes!!), Down East, and a bunch of other stores. It is just fun spending time with my mom. After shopping we went to Zupas (delicious sandwich/soup/salad place) and split the most amazing sandwich and salad. It was perfect. Then we got ready for Les Miserables. We drove down to SLC and ate at Zetajas and had fish tacos. (once again SO YUMMY) I dont even know what to say about Les Miserables. I cried the music is SO moving and I just love EVERYTHING about it. It is my new favorite musical. I love love love love loved it! After Les Miserables the boy came over and hung out with my mom and I again until 2 in the morning which is sweet because he never stays that late. It was nice to see them get along so well- that is a huge thing for me and a requirement in the guy I marry.

Sunday my mom left and I was depressed all day. I got to church early and read conference talks and totally felt the spirit and had a prayer answered. It was a great feeling, but yet I still missed my mom. The weekend was PERFECT!!

Monday I fed the homeless ALL day. (literally!) 7am-5pm! It was a rewarding experience though. It was so sad but yet they were so appreciative and loving. I know it must be hard on them and it made me appreciate my parents and everything they have always done for me. I love doing service. (it always puts me in such a good mood after) thank you school for the opportunity to do service :)