Sorry I haven't been blogging lately...I have noticed when I have a lot on my mind I don't blog (which is probably when it would be the most beneficial) Here's the update in my life. 

I went home for the holidays, and it was SO nice to see my family and be around my hometown. There is something magical about Maple Valley that makes me feel smart, confident, and every other good feeling. I love coming home and knowing the subzero refrigerator is FULL of food, my parents will be working on a house project, and that I will go to Trappers Sushi AT LEAST once. Home is a feeling for me- its a rooting and regrouping. I always leave feeling recharged, and back to myself and my true self. When I got home it was SNOWY (which is SO rare!), painters were painting our house, I made/ate pies, watched football and was lazy for an entire week. However if you know me being lazy for an entire week doesn't really work out well for me. I get so anxious for the 1023048230948 things I have to do. After a couple days I started getting fidgety and really anxious- I have 3 finals coming up in my nursing class and was worried about them. So despite how wonderful my family/home is I knew I needed to get home and study. It was a total buzz kill for my vacation. (Thank GOODNESS I'll be going back in 17 days) 

Now that I am back from home things have been anything but perfect.

“Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.” ♥

I have had finals like crazy and most of them have been test that require me getting 80% or better or else I get DROPPED from the program. No pressure right!? I love nursing school don't get me wrong- but I honestly feel like I am emotional and stressed because of it. It has made me become a nervous wreck. That is the main reason of my blog today. I want to feel like I have a handle on my life, emotions and my future. Update: I passed my first final and have another one today!

Life has been SO magical lately up until Thanksgiving break. I am SO happy with who I have become lately, and was spending time with one of the MOST amazing people I have met. They made sure I knew I was beautiful, smart and could do anything. They put up with my emotional roller coaster ride of nursing school. They most importantly taught me to never settle, and that I deserve someone like this in my life. Not having this person in my life anymore will be hard, uncomfortable and weird but I know I will be ok. I appreciate everything they did for me and all the times they listened to me complain and stress out. You are ONE-OF-A-KIND <3

Things to look forward to about Christmas season:

-Watch Elf

-Look at Christmas Lights

-Drink hot cocoa

-Decorate gingerbread houses

-Temple Square Christmas Lights

-Going home for Christmas

-The Cabin/Snowmobiles/Fireplace during the break

-Being done with finals

-See The Nutcracker in theater

Thank goodness for the holiday season. Tis the season....

Seattle here I come.

Today (last minute i know...sorry dad!) I booked my flight home!

November 23-November 29 I will be in the happiest place (no not disneyland- but close!) I cant wait to go to the cabin and see my family. Hopefully I can get some studying time in too ;)

I am so grateful for my family and everything they do and have done for me. I love them more than words can describe. "Theres no place like home"-Dorothy <3

Things coming up this week:
-Jazz game
-Harry potter premiere
-Test on Thursday :(

Photobooth on my macbook is fantastic! <3

Today my Dad and Brother came into town! -this sentence brings me joy!

I have missed my family SO much lately, you dont realize how much you need someone until you arent with them. That is how I feel about my parents. I grew so dependent and close to them these last 2 years I was home, that being away from them is so hard on me. I love and appreciate them more than I could express.


Tonight my Dad and I (and Michael) went out to dinner (at Tucanos which is THE best restaurant!) Tucanos is a brazilian buffet which has TONS of meat and salad bars etc. After dinner we went to the apple store to "look around at the new ipad" and then my dad surprised me by buying me a macbook pro. eeek! Today was a great day. After my Dad and Brother left someone special came over and took time out of their busy day to see me and play uno (and get their butt kicked) I couldnt have asked for a better day.

Maybe Utah wont be as bad as I was thinking? :)

xoxo
N

My birthday has come and passed :) Another year to look forward to.


Things I want to accomplish before I turn 23:
-run a 1/2 marathon
-pass my LPN NCLEX
-have 15K in my savings account
-get a kitten
-go to New York
-watch a baby be delivered
-learn how to make my moms famous ribs

“Even though we've changed and we're all finding our own place in the world, we all know that when the tears fall or the smile spreads across our face, we'll come to each other because no matter where this crazy world takes us, nothing will ever change so much to the point where we're not all still friends.”

Life has been so crazy and full of new adventures lately. I honestly feel like I am just holding on for the ride. School is kicking my butt, but I am learning SO much and am grateful for all the clinical opportunities I have.

My birthday month has arrived and this year I honestly havent been celebrating like normal. But I have decided to not let it drag me down for the rest of the month. Here is to a new start of the bday celebration. Trip to nordstrom tomorrow <3 hopefully they will have something good.

Things I want for my bday:

• bday sushi!
• pedicure
• car washhhhhhhh 
• gerber daisies
• return to tiffany heart pendant earrings
• the book "a heart like his"
• for my best friends to come visit me <3 xoxo miss you girls!

I have honestly just been way homesick and lonely lately. Its wierd to have to start all over and make new friends. My roommates left this weekend and it really made me realize how much I like being around them and appreciate them. They have been so welcoming and sweet to me- I honestly couldnt have asked for anything better.

Here are the top 5 things that happened last week

1. Gave my first intramuscular injection
2. Got a 96% on my medication test
3. I made my birthday cookies
4. Sounders won their soccer game vs. Kansas City wizards (which puts them in the play offs!!)
5. I lost 3 lbs

School honestly is really taking up my time, and when I'm not at school or studying I am trying to muster up the energy to work out. I have been running and getting back into yoga. I forgot how centering and stress relieving yoga is for me.


What I have been up to lately (besides studying, gym, laundry, church....repeat)
My mom came to visit and we got to spend time together up in Park City! -it is SO beautiful there even in summer. We shopped and went to costco, basically what we would have done if in WA :) I really miss her and look up to her so much. We went to Womens Conference up in Park City and my sweet mom began to cry (no not during the great talk Pres. Monson gave...but before that during the song) She then preceded to cry throughout the entire talk and rest of the meeting. She is such a sweet spirit and I make fun of her for it but she is such a great mother.