ADIOS

 AMF: (Adios)
 I am packing up my things this week- hopefully fitting my life (clothes!) in my car as i drive 13 hours to Farmington Utah for a new chapter in my life.

Things I will miss:
my family
friends
my own bathroom
my walk in closet
starbucks on every corner
covington red robin (pathetic i know- i feel like an addict: we have a love/hate relationship!)
my bright room
my moms cooking
sounders games

the hawaii trip :(

First off: Keegan our short lived 8th grade relationship is still hands down the BEST relationship I've been in, you were the most romantic bf! :)

This week/month/summer have been so busyyy. I honestly can't believe summer is almost over. No more late night jogs, bonfires, passion tea lemonade, tanning oil and summer dresses :( If you know me though you'll know that fall is my favorite! School supplies, football season, boots, jackets, scarves, psl, my birthday, falling leaves and fresh starts. <3 so heres my good bye to summer 2010

This summer I:
worked A LOT
Layed out
Saw old friends (Sara, brit holt, Emily and Danielle)
Got into nursing school
Worked out
Got pneumonia :(
Made some new friends
Fell head over heels for someone
Got A LOT of shots
Learned life lessons about friends

Now that I've said good bye summer let me back track on the last few weeks.
My mom, lidia and I drove to Utah to look for apts, go to orientation and bring some stuff down to layton. It was such a stressful and longgggg weekend. We ate good food (zupas and cafe rio) and saw 100 of apartments (all of which we scary, nasty, moldy,and SCARY!!) after coming home discouraged because we didn't find somewhere to live I found a cute little house in Farmington online. With a leap of faith I decided to move in. I am so excited to start this new chapter in my life. One full of life, happiness, hard work, passion and new adventures.

Sara came home for the week- which is the therapy I needed. I miss having my good, true friends around me a lot. We swam,shopped,ate junk, and shopped some more!one night we did a late night swim in her lake which was so much fun! The lake was warm and the water was so calm it was so peaceful! One night we also went to urgent care because my finger was black and blue from "jamming" it at a work meeting playing football. 10pm, trying to get my ring off, some late night giggles, and a couple X-rays later we found out my finger was broken! :( what an adventure! S I love you and am so grateful for the friendship and memories we have and all the things we've been through together. <3

Eeeek! I honestly cannot believe I start nursing school in a month- I have SOO much to do!

Most importantly I need to find somewhere to live! Thank goodness I have a mandatory orientation meeting July 30th which gives me an excuse to miss work to look for apts and learn more about what nursing school will require.I decided the best solution was to make an excel spread sheet of the complexes near school-that way when I am down there I have the information I need to make a decision. I am so excited to go scrub shopping- mind you scrubs are NOT IDEAL back to school shopping but I have honestly been dreaming about the time I get into nursing school and have to go buy my scrubs for 2 years now. To actually have it happening seems so surreal and exciting!

Enough about school for a minute- I do have a life still besides getting ready to move and start nursing school. I have really been slacking on healthy eating habits- SOMEONE hold me accountable PLEASE!! I have however been better about getting in daily exercise this week :) At least that will KIND OF cancel out my icecream sandwiches and dino-chicken nuggets.  I have been cleaning a lot to get ready for packing. I found a gem of a CD- GREASE SOUNDTRACK. Only a few of my oldest friends would truely understand how signifigant that is to me. When I was living in California Jessica and I would literally rock out and dance to the ENTIRE CD. I have listened to the CD 20+ times since I've discovered it and still am jamming and cant get "The One That I Want" out of my head. (which Im not complaining about!)

"You better shape up because I need a man- and my heart is set on you. You better shape up- you better understand that to my heart I must be true....Youre the one that I want, oohhhooohoooo!" This wraps up the story of my love life. <3 ahhaha

I am officially starting nursing school August 20th. Eeeek! I can hardley wait!! Orientation is July 30th and I seriously cant sleep because I am SOOO excited.


In the mean time I have a HUGE list of things to do:
-find a place to live!
-figure out the furniture situation (ie-BED!)
-clean out and help my mom get my room ready to become a guest room (sad right?!!)
-pack
-figure out some other things for when I move: job? (will i have time?) gym etc.
-enjoy my last few weeks of easy and relaxing life- nursing school is going to kick my butt!

***and I'm going to love everyyyyyyyyyyyyyy minute of it <3

Sorry about the lack of new blogs lately- like i said earlier, I had pneumonia.

A couple of weeks ago we went to Austin, TX for a Erika's wedding. It was such a beautiful ceremony and reception. As I sat there I was so impressed that I couldn't even think of a part of the entire wedding I would have changed (minus the church differences!). She blew me away- I have always said I want a small, simple wedding reception that is very laid back and intimate, but her gorgeous wedding and fun atmosphere maybe made me change my mind...who knows! good thing I have plenty of time to change my mind. The wedding events started off with the rehearsal dinner which on a boat cruising Lake Austin- the food was good, and it was really fun because we were out late enough to watch the bats fly from under the bridge. (A Texas tourism thing) The next day was the wedding at a huge gorgeous church- this really made me appreciate how I have been brought up and really cherished my relationship with the church and the sacred nature of our temples. Although the church she was married in was BEAUTIFUL and grand, i felt blessed to know that through living righteously I would be able to go to the temple someday. Before the ceremony Erika had slide show of pictures and a girl singing beautiful songs before the wedding started. (SUCH a cute idea!) The reception was at a golf course on Lake Travis which is SO pretty- a beautiful scenery. At the reception the tables were decorated with simple flowers that were stunning. I loved her wedding and am so glad I got to be there for the weekend. I love Texas and miss it SO much.

I am waiting impatiently for the mail to come each day- the only things that come for me are my stupid credit card bills. (which are paid off by the time the bill even comes to me, which is why its stupid!) I keep having vivid dreams that I get a letter of acceptance in the mail. The letter always starts of "Congratulations Natalie Zahajko we are proud to announce your acceptance into Provo College Nursing Program for Fall 2010". Yes I have it memorized now because I have this dream once a week. Keep praying for me- Ill be sure to let you all know how it turns out. :)

Having pneumonia sucked- worst way ever to start the summer. I went for a run along the Cedar River Trail and came home SO light headed and sick that I couldn't move or anything. Assuming it was simple dehydration I laid in bed for a few hours drinking gallons of water. When I didn't get better and developed a SERIOUS cough- to the point where I struggled to breathe. Work was miserable and I kept going to try to conquer this cold. However, after my shift on Sunday (yes I know I was being punished for having to work on Sunday) I was determined to go to the doctor on Monday to get medicine to help me get better. (which is a big step for me- I dont like going to the doctor unless I KNOW i am not getting better without medicine) Turns out after some chest xrays I had full blow pneumonia, and it was so severe that my Oxygen levels were drastically low and I had several infections in my lungs. The doctor showed my the xrays which was really interesting and then prescribed my some great medicine. Thank goodness for medicine! I am feeling a lot better today (a week and a few days later) but still have a lingering cough- I am hoping that goes away soon :) Love you all! more updates soon! **i mean it this time

xoxo
N

pneumonia.

Lately I haven't felt like blogging at all (which means too much is going on in my head- that its too hard to put my thoughts into words) So is my best attempt to sum it up

I am not the typical Mormon girl (sorry if this is offensive and stereotypical but i feel like since I'm LDS i can be!) I am in absolutely no rush to get married and do not feel the pressure to have 10+ kids. To be honest I haven't even (seriously) thought about dating in the last 2 years. Being 21 (almost 22 this year) I am starting to feel like I am truly understanding myself and growing into the person I want to be. In Mormon time line I am basically an old maid and should have 2 kids by now; but I couldn't be happier at where I am in my life. School really has become my #1 priority. Achieving the academic goals I have set for myself have been so hard, that I really gave up a lot of my social life. I guess meeting the right person really changes your perspective- Recently I have had a reality check and been reminded of the importance of balancing your life and marriage especially. Yes- nursing is still my #1 priority but I think I need to remember that I can't shut out guys and a social life until I achieve my goals.


I also am struggling with the whole nerves of nursing school applications. ENOUGH said.


These last 2 years I've really been in a funk in every way possible. I say I'm doing better and doing great but honestly there are days I wonder how I got where I am- and why life has to throw so many curve balls. Freshman year at BYU really changed me- for better or worse I am not at all that same girl. I have to realize that and accept it. I used to be such a care-free, optimistic and outgoing person. Freshman year I learned a lot about myself and the "real world" and how relationships with people (boys and girls) work. I know it sounds so sinical to say that I have a chip on my shoulder from these experiences but I like to think of it as my "Princess blinders" have been removed. I used to see only the good in people, and the world. Now it's been replaced with disappointment, deceit and pessimism.  All of those words are generally associated with bad things- I don't mean to sound like a bitter old maid, but those words have changed me. I see the world for what it really is- Lately I have really come to accept this transformation in myself. I no longer have to wake up and tell myself "today will be a good day"- just to fool myself into thinking it will be. I look forward to getting up and living life again.


TO BE CONTINUED...