Thursday, January 27, 2011

The best way to figure out where you're going is to know where you want to go [and what you want].

Alice: Would you tell me, please which way I ought to go from here?
The Cat: That depends a good deal on where you want to get to
Alice: I don't much care where
The Cat: Then it doesn't much matter which way you go.

So here I am- I am deciding what type of guy I want, to help me decide where I should go. I was told to make a list of qualities of things I am looking for [5: non-negotiable 5: negotiable] I have thought a lot about the things I am looking for in a guy, and a relationship.

Spiritually strong: someone who challenges me to be better, who has a testimony and love for Christ.
Sense of humor: witty, able to take a joke and make me laugh
Patient/Forgiving:  someone able to look past my imperfections and be patient with me as I strive to become the best person I can be
Hard Working/Ambitious: someone who knows what they want to do in life and will do whatever it takes to achieve that- nothing is more attractive than a guy who knows what he wants and get its!
Honest: a person I can trust and know that will always be truthful- even if that means telling me a dress makes me look fat ;)

Alright so I couldn't come up with 10 things...it is a work in progress! I have always been told to be the things I am looking for in a guy to date. So this is a good start.....

Saturday, January 22, 2011

Lately I have been blogging and avoiding a huge white elephant in the room. I decided I need to sit down and really reflect on how I feel.

I am the type of person that loves people too much; so much that I would rather get hurt than letting those I love be hurt. I forgive easily and see the best in people which just makes myself more vulnerable to be hurt again. I give everything I have for someone but expect little to nothing back in return. I am the first person to apologize in an argument, and can't sleep at night knowing I did something wrong to someone (or that someone is mad at me).

You told me you needed time, and I have given you all the time in the world. You told me you needed space so I gave you space and tried dating other people. You didn't like it when I seemed to be happy and content with other people and not seeing you everyday (the space you wanted). Little did you know I thought about you everyday and had to tell myself that one day it would be worth it. That one day you wouldn't need space to see what you had. I prayed you would feel the way I feel about you; that you would be able to look past things I have done and love me.

You said you were done and had more important things to focus on. I should hear you and let go....

Wednesday, January 19, 2011





Yes these pictures are FOR REAL. Dont even worry about it.

On Monday (MLK Day) all of us got dressed up for a "Decade Dance" for FHE. Aubrey and I made a trip to DI which was probably the highlight of the day. You never really know the treasures you'll find there. Getting ready and dressed up for the dance was more exciting than the actual dance though. (Which is really still hard for me to come to terms with...) I was so excited for old school music and lots of dancing- but it was a night full of "the chicken dance" song and No Doubt?! MAJOR DISAPPOINTMENT to say the least

Afterwards us girls decided to not let the lame dance bring us down. We went to Walmart (in our lovelyyyyyyy decade outfits) and grabbed some essentials (like animal cookies, cinnamon lip candy etc) Then we went back to the Yellow House and had our own dance party. <3 Thank goodness for Cambria and Aubrey.

Saturday, January 15, 2011



Tonight Aubrey and I went on an adventure. This song started it all and set the tone for the night. It may have included:

  • ShoGun Sushi
  • Honking at the car next to us and then waving
  • DJ playing music 
  • Mochi>??
  • Walmart at 1am
  • Singing "I dont need a man" in Walmart
  • Buying myself flowers
  • Dancing in my car to the BEST jams
  • Aubrey telling me about the afterlife (when I glazed over and listened to "Hot Tottie" instead) 
  • Aubrey catching a cookie in her mouth
  • Stranger Danger
  • Lots of laughing
Another night to remember. 
Dear Journal, 
Today Aubrey and I got to play and I liked it. <3 Love Always, Natalie
PS- I missed Big Cam

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Cambria. Aubrey. Me Girls Night Out 

Rondi. Me. Aubrey (I stole this from your blog Aubrey <3)

Lately I have:

  • Watched Jazz games
  • Gone with Aubrey to Hot Springs 
  • Had a Girls Night Out with Aubrey and Cambria dancing
  • Studied
  • Gone back to school since the break
  • Cleaned my room
  • Watched the Seahawks beat the Saints! (game on Sunday vs Bears!)
  • Missed one of my best friends and someone I care SO much about
  • Been eating chocolate covered almonds (DELICIOUS!) 
One of my new years eve resolutions is to get back to a regular sleeping pattern. So far I have failed miserably! I am trying to get up at 7:30-8am regardless of the time I go to bed, but I seem to be up until 2am and am sleeping like a rock. Needless to say when 7:30-8am rolls around I am still knocked out. I am starting to think my goal may be harder than I anticipated and need more time.

Sleeping Beauty: Once Upon A Dream

Sleeping Beauty: Prepare For Princess Auora's Birthday


Auroa is Lidia's favorite princess and this is fitting for my day. Sleeping Beauty is one of the oldest disney movies and is a total classic. I re-watched it last night and forgot how much I enjoy that movie...its timeless! Auroa is born and the kingdom is celebrating and 3 fairies come to give her a gift. Flora grants the princess with the gift of beauty, and Flora gives Auora with the gift of song when the mean Maleficent comes uninvited and curses Princess Auroa.  A curse that states on her 16th birthday she will prick her finger on a spinning wheel's spindle and die. The sweet King burns the spinning wheels in the kingdom to try to protect his princess but knows that wont be enough to protect her. The 3 good fairies Flora, Fauna and Merryweather decide to raise Princess Auora in the woods with their protection and love (without magic!)  For almost 16 years the fairies raise her as their own and protect her from Maleficent. Until on Auoras 16th birthday Flora, Flauna and Merryweather use magic to create a beautiful dress and cake to celebrate her birthday. Ofcourse there has to be a love story....Auora meets Prince Phillip (who ironically is arranged to marry from birth!) in the forest and without exchanging names fall madly in love and plan to meet up later that night. Its funny how true that can be, so often we don't realize that hand of the Lord in our lives and His plan. We think we know who and what we are meant to do, only to find later that His plan was so different for you (or in this case the same but not what you expected!) Anywaysssss Im sure you remember the rest of the story....Princess cries because she loves the "Man she met in the forest" and doesn't want to marry Prince Phillip. Auora follows the eery green light to a spinning wheel, and pricks her finger. The fairies put everyone in the town to sleep, to avoid sadness and sorrow. Merryweather grants her the gift that she'll sleep (rather than die) until her True Love kisses her to wake her up. Prince Phillip uses the sword of truth and shield of virtue to destroy Maleficent. Which of course happens since its disney. Prince Phillip kisses Auora and wakes her up. They dance into the night and live happily ever after. Auora is a sweet girl, who is beautiful, caring and has a beautiful voice. In Snow White and Sleeping Beauty the princess sings and attract their Prince Charming. Maybe in order to find my Prince Charming I need to learn how to sing?!

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

I have too much on my mind to blog. Growing up, maturing and learning to be a better person should be easier. Lidia insisted my mom bought me this CD and it has been a huge blessing in my life lately.

Last Kiss by Taylor Swift

(Its a 6+ minute song but I PROMISE you it is worth it. I have this song on repeat and its the only thing that explains how I am feeling...Things will be ok and will work out how they are supposed to. But you are the most amazing person I have ever met.) I will be back to blogging soon I PROMISE.

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Princess


Since I have been back to Utah I have realized how eternally grateful I am for such great parents, good friends and all the blessings I have in my life. I flew in late on Tuesday (which gave me more time at home) and got to see some of my absolute favorite people (Aubrey, Cambria and Nate). Being around these people makes me so happy and feel like I am at home. I stayed up LATE unpacking and trying to re-organize my room (so I can attempt to fit all of my stuff in my room!) I woke up the next morning and turned on Snow White and was back at my room....getting rid of clothes, putting coats in a different closet, organizing shoes, printing syllabi for classes, and doing laundry. The movie felt so fitting :) It reminded me of my unhealthy obsession with Disney and the Princesses. So this week I am going to try to incorporate all my favorite princesses in my blog post.

Sometimes I feel like Snow White, wishing on a well. Snow White has many great attributes (beside OBVIOUSLY being the fairest of them all!) She is very giving, sweet, kind, innocent, loving and optimistic. She doesnt let the vein queen ruin her outlook on life and in her quest makes friends with creatures and the dwarves. Not to mention she is a wonderful example of a housewife (cooking and cleaning! but she does have a lot of help from the animals! <3)  Hope you all enjoy! <3


I'm Wishing: Snow White

Whistle While You Work: Snow White


Monday, January 3, 2011

Sara Heather Keegan Joey and I NYE 2010

Joey and I NYE 2010

I am not a big fan of New Years Eve at all. I think everything about it is overrated....people should set goals all year round (and not once a year- that they forget 2 weeks later!), people should kiss the person they care about any night (not just 12:00 on Jan 1st!) I would rather set goals and lay in bed watching a movie on New Years Eve. Personal feelings aside this year I went to Sara's House to people with a few friends. But before I went to Sara's I went with Michelle and Jordan to get a manicure/pedicure. A spa day was MUCH needed. I also had lunch and got to hang out with Derek and Dante. Dante is such a well trained dog, and so stinking cute :) And like always it was so nice to be around my brother. Him and I have always been so close growing up that he is really more like a friend to me. He is the guy I go to for advice, technical support, venting and any other dilemma in my life. He fixes everything. <3
Sara and I NYE 2010
Today I went to sushi. Sushi is pure happiness for me. I have really been struggling lately at feeling motivated, rested, and overall happy. Its not that anything in my life is way awful or wrong, I just feel uneasy about something...and I'm not even sure what it is. I get this feeling every so often and usually it predicts a trial in my life that really tests my self worth, my ability to be strong, and my faith. For years I have been searching for something I lost in myself, and I have been able to get most of the pieces in my life back together but I still feel like there are a few things missing. I have been praying to figure out how I can better myself and rise above the trials, mistakes and heart aches in my life. Lately I have been struggling with the past mistakes in my life and the person I was a few years ago. It was such a rough few years where I felt so lost and confused.The best way I can describe it was a tornado: I didnt know where I was, what was going or where I was going. I went where the wind blew and didnt really think much about anything. 

It is so true that "if you dont stand for something you'll fall for anything" -Malcom X

But with everything the fall is always faster and acute than the recovery. I will get back to where I was...and better. It will just take more time. Until then I can only keep focusing on myself and becoming a better person. I still have a LONG way to go before I've become the person I want to be. Soon I will look back and be grateful for all I have been through for making me a stronger person. I am grateful for the friends I have that have supported me in my life and making my decisions in my life. They have really been there for me and showed me what it means to be a true friend. I love you all and am grateful for the support youve shown me. 

Sunday, January 2, 2011

I saw this video months ago, but think about it all the time. When reflecting on this year I remembered this video and thought about wonderful it is and the comfort it has given me over the year. I thought I would share it with everyone.

Video: Good Things To Come <3



"Don't you quit. You keep walking. You keep trying. There is help and happiness ahead. Some blessings come soon, some come late, and some don't come until heaven."

"It will be alright in the end. Trust God and believe in good things to come"

Saturday, January 1, 2011


Heres to 2010. This year a lot has happened, the more I think about it the more I really believe this will be a year I look back at that really changed my life.

In 2010 I:

  • Got into Nursing School
  • Moved to Utah
  • Had a huge falling out with some "friends"- which made me learn what being a friend means
  • Went to Hawaii, California (disneyland), Texas
  • Discovered that in order to be the person I want to be in the future I have to start making those choices NOW
  • I worked  A LOT 
  • I lost 50 lbs
I have set some goals for the new year and cant wait to for what 2011 brings. 
In 2011 I will: 
  • Keep working out and lose the "holiday weight"
  • Certify as a LPN 
  • Go on a vacation with friends
  • Get my sleep pattern back onto a normal person schedule
  • Run a 1/2 marathon
  • Control my emotions better: not get upset easily and take things personal
  • Kick butt in the nursing program
  • Eat healthier foods
  • Have $15K in my savings account